Showing posts from April, 2010

The last few weeks...

As horrible as it sounds, the last few weeks have been very tough. First someone close to me had a baby, then I find out that someone else close to me is expecting- they just got married. It's not that I'm not happy for them, because I truly am. It is just so hard to wait. My heart ached and I cried until my head hurt. I was emotionally raw, and trying to go about my life as normal. Today I read 1 Samuel 1 and found great comfort. May God help me to be like Hannah. I was able to give God my pain and let the healing begin. Praise God!


It is such a lovely and beautiful day! There is nothing like waking up to sunshine streaming in the windows! Thank God for Spring. It makes me feel so alive and happy to see all the buds, and flowers.


is something my husband and I have been dealing with for over 3 years. It is one of the most painful things I have ever been through. It is at the very core of being a girl. It has been my dream to be a mama ever since I can remember. And yet it has drawn Ben and I closer together and closer to Christ. There is no way I could have made it this far without them!
Satan uses infertility to make you fall into pits of self pity. One of the things he taunts you with is that you aren't a woman if you can't conceive and carry a baby for 9 months. It is NOT true. God loves each of us so much. I give him my pain over and over. It is not a one time surrender. At least not for me. It threatens to drag me down continually. And yet with God's help, I WILL be victorious!!
Satan uses other people to try to make you depressed. God has used it to help me to be more sensitive to others. I have to give up the hurtful comments to God continually. I cling to Him, and HE helps me through, one step…


We have been enjoying lovely Spring weather here... until yesterday. I woke up to snow yesterday morning. Thankfully it didn't stay around long! I'm SO ready for Spring and Summer.
I was just thinking and realizing that I have been married for over 3 1/2 years already. I am so blessed with a wonderful husband! I am so glad that I surrendered
my life to God, and allowed Him to be in control of my love life. He brought Ben and I together, and it is truly a beautiful thing! If you would like to read our courtship story, you can read it at