Showing posts from January, 2012

The story of how God brought us together!

Just wanted to share a link to the story of how God brought Ben and I together. It's been almost five and a half years since we got married!

Garage/Yard Sale

I just wanted to let you all know that we are planning a garage/yard sale for adoption fundraising in the spring. If you would like to help, or have something to donate, please email us at  Thanks!


Okay, so this week has been really tough and I have been feeling a bit depressed and overwhelmed. And then I log on the computer today and see that people have given us $300 today towards adoption. I was so blessed and felt like God was showing me how HE is the one is charge. I don't need to be all worried and stressed, because HE is going to take care of us. Thank you all so much! You have no idea how blessed I am:)
 In other news, Ben has a class after work today and won't be home until late. I'm so thankful that Serra (the little girl we take care of) is here:) She keeps me company!
 I made homemade mac and cheese for lunch for Serra and I. Yum!
 Love to you all!


I know that a lot of people don't think it is good for a christian to ask God why, and I'm sorry, but I am human. Today is just "one of those days."  If you are somebody who feels this way, then you probably don't want to read this!
 Why is it so easy for so many people that don't even want children to have them and we who want them so bad have such a hard time? Why do the people who sleep around get pregnant when it is the last thing they want, when we who saved ourselves for each other until our wedding night can't? Why do some people get pregnant  right when they want to, when we've been waiting almost 5 1/2 years? Why us? What did we do to deserve this pain?
 No, I am not mad at God. Yes I understand that He has a plan and that I just need to wait on Him. It's just that right now, I hurt. I don't understand. I can't see the big picture. Sometimes the adoption process seems out of reach and totally over whelming and I just want to be a …


When I think of family, I think of noise and laughter and commotion. I think of doors shutting and footsteps and talking. I think of staying up late, and getting up early. I think of people gathered around a big table eating together and enjoying time together. 
 That was the hardest adjustment to getting married. All the sudden it was quiet and lonely. So quiet that I thought I would go insane sometimes!
 So, my hope for the future is that God may bless my husband and I with children, so we don't have to get old alone:) That we may never have an empty house in our old age:)

Left to right. Erin, Abby, Pauline, Alicia, Nikki, Jenny and I.

Around our home.

Went out for a little walk and took some pictures. I'm soaking up the 40' and sunshine since we have a snow storm moving in:) We're heading up to my parents for the night and the day tomorrow so that Ben doesn't have to drive in the snow tomorrow. Our cars tires leave much to be desired:( :)
 I am so thankful that we have made it this far this winter with so little sickness. Thank you God!
 You all have a wonderful day. :)
~Ben and Esther




Fear has always been a very real part of my life. One of my biggest fears has been opening up my heart to others. It makes me feel so vulnerable, and that is really scary for me. God has taught me a lot lately in this area. The times I have let go of my fear and opened up anyways, he has shown me that he blesses that. It has been a very painful, but rewarding experience. It has been amazing to me that the more I have been able to open up about our struggles to have children, the more loved and supported I have felt.  The devil uses fear in so many way to rule us. We need to not allow him to do that. We need to let go and let God. In saying all this, I have decided to try my best to be more open. It scares me silly, but I really feel that it is the right thing to do. Like I said in one of my recent posts, ever since I was a little girl, I dreamt of being a mommy. I really didn't care much about a career, I just wanted to find my prince charming, and have tons of adorable bab…