Showing posts from October, 2012


Infertility has been one of the most painful things that I have ever been through. It has truly been a roller coaster ride. And while I still have days when I'll cry at the drop of a hat, it HAS gotten easier. The first couple years were the hardest. Mainly because I felt so alone. I was to scared to admit that it was happening. I was clinging to the hope that just cause it hadn't happened yet didn't mean it wouldn't happen this month, or the next or the next. Then by the time a couple years went by, I had to come to grips with the fact, it just wasn't happening. I had to give up my dreams of seeing those two lines appear. The dream of getting to share such a precious moment with my husband. The dream of getting to tell my parents they were going to be grandparents, or making my in laws grandparents for the first time. The dream of carrying a miracle inside of me. The dream of seeing what part of me and part of the love of my life looked like. So many dreams were …

John 9:3

Jesus answered, Neither hath this man sinned, nor his parents: but that the works of God should be made manifest in him. John 9:3
 This verse has become one of my favorite verses in the Bible in the last couple year. It is the story of the blind man that Jesus healed. Everyone was assuming that his blindness was the result of his or his parents sin. But Jesus tells them, no, it is so that the works of God should be made manifest in him. He wanted to be glorified in this man's life. It is such a comfort to me on this journey of infertility. In the beginning, I blamed myself, and felt blamed by those around me. I felt like I was letting my husband, my family and everyone around me down by not producing offspring! But one day when I read this verse, it jumped out at me. And has been a huge source of comfort to me ever since! May God truly be glorified in my life!
 Love to you all!